Ashley.2007--0-2-T24: 1:4:-08:00''Be daring, be different, be impractical, be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play-it-safers, the creatures of the commonplace, the slaves of the ordinary.''
My name is Ashley.
I'm a person with a lot of ideas and dreams.
I never act the way i should.
My life revolves around art .
Attention Deficit Disorder.
I'm not social at all and i'd rather stay at home than go out with friends.
Apparently i make people laugh.
I talk way to fast and for some reason i always jump on couches.
I have this thing for sciencefiction, old horror stories and freakshows.
Idealist.Philosopher.Artist.Activist.
Somehow i always end up defending the ones who are considered wrong in today's society. Because i feel like i should.
I love animals especially the ones you shouldn't have as pets.
I'm probably the most open minded person you'll ever meet.
I'm extremely messy and i always forget stuff.
In general i'm a nice and talkative person.
I doodle on all my stuff, your stuff and apparently i enjoy drawing on walls.
I'm still convincing my mom to get me a goat and a duck.
I'm an complete idiot.
Mmkay?buzznet:user:id:398303http://www.buzznet.com/Copyright (c) 2005, Buzznet, Inc.ashliliieyPrivateAnd once againbuzznet:user:entry:id:451213412008--1-0-T10: 0:8:-08:002008--1-0-T10: 0:8:-08:002008--1-0-T10: 0:8:-08:00ashliliiey i bite my lip and shut my mouth before i say another word too much.
And the whole world will turn against me.
So uhm taking a break i think.
Or atleast spend less time on here.
Before buzznet is getting boring.
Before i am getting boring.
I probably already am but ok.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122365308438.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122365308438.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122365308438.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122365308438.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122365308438.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122365308438.jpgI hate humanity.buzznet:user:entry:id:450692012008--1-0-T09: 0:8:-08:002008--1-0-T09: 0:8:-08:002008--1-0-T09: 0:8:-08:00ashliliiey People take my joy for life away.
'I don't let people ruin my fun'
BULLSHIT.
You have to face these people every fucking day. You cannot just ignore them.
That would be playing dumb. And i do not play that game.
School is teaching me lies about society.
Civilization.. pah what civilization
Thankyou for reminding me how fucked up the world is every day.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122356595745.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122356595745.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122356595745.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122356595745.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122356595745.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122356595745.jpgAll my hate.buzznet:user:entry:id:450248712008--1-0-T08: 1:0:-08:002008--1-0-T08: 1:0:-08:002008--1-0-T08: 1:0:-08:00ashliliiey This is me putting all my anger and hate in one painting.
All my frustrations on paper.
I feel safe - Seems your saved
I so made this 5 minutes ago.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122348680864.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122348680864.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122348680864.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122348680864.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122348680864.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122348680864.jpgIt's all in my head.buzznet:user:entry:id:449733612008--1-0-T07: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T07: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T07: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey In my head i'm already where i want to be.
But than i get confronted with reality and see who i am.
Not even half way where i want to be.
It's like i keep lying to myself. Saying that i am trully unique and will mean something in this world. In my head it's so easy. But this world isn't easy. It's far from easy.
But for now it's the only place where i can be. The world with all it's lies gives me the truth everytime i arrive back to earth from my many travels in my mind.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122339582585.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122339582585.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122339582585.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122339582585.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122339582585.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122339582585.jpgI yell at god all the time.buzznet:user:entry:id:449129812008--1-0-T06: 0:8:-08:002008--1-0-T06: 0:8:-08:002008--1-0-T06: 0:8:-08:00ashliliiey But than i have to remember myself that he doesn't excist or simply doesn't care.
Everytime when it's really quiet in the class my mind goes like this;
What if i just start screaming hysterically?
What if i cut of the ponytail of the girl infront of me?
Would she cry?
What if i just got up and tell them what i really think of them?
What if i just jumped out of the window?
What would the teacher do?
And than i imagine myself doing that and theres a smile on my face.
And the best part is. Nobody knows what i am thinking at that moment.
While they are all playing the lead roles.
This drawing is so terrible that it makes it almost interesting]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-12233054503.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-12233054503.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-12233054503.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-12233054503.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-12233054503.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-12233054503.jpgMom i need a dog right now. No seriously i need one.buzznet:user:entry:id:448675912008--1-0-T05: 1:1:-08:002008--1-0-T05: 1:1:-08:002008--1-0-T05: 1:1:-08:00ashliliiey And a chicken. So i can call them Bab and Bert.
Just got back from eating icecream in the rain.
Which is awesome.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122323054319.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122323054319.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122323054319.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122323054319.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122323054319.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122323054319.jpgLet's face it people. It's autumn.buzznet:user:entry:id:447996312008--1-0-T04: 1:0:-08:002008--1-0-T04: 1:0:-08:002008--1-0-T04: 1:0:-08:00ashliliiey Today was very interesting.
Me and my mom went shopping together to celebrate my birthday properly.
So we were sitting in the train when someone announced that the train couldn't go any further because someone committed suicide by jumping in front of a train.
Me and my mom had a headache all day untill we started talking about the person who committed suicide.
Mom; i think it very selfish of that person. He/she didn't even think what it would do to his/her family.
Ashley: What about the traindriver? I bet it's even worse for him. But you know what, i think we deserve to be selfish when it comes to suicide.
When someones is physically very ill and can't be cured you don't want them to suffer any longer right? Trust me when your depressed or don't want to live any longer every minute alive is pure torment.
Mom; hm i don't know any problem can be solved.
Ashley; not if you don't want them to be solved. You just want the easy way out.
Mom; i hope he/she went to a better place.
Ashley; i'm sure he/she did.
And suddenly both of us had no headaches anymore. So i don't feel sad for that person. I know he or she went to a better place.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-12231398989.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-12231398989.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-12231398989.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-12231398989.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-12231398989.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-12231398989.jpgPortret van Joseph Roulin by Vincent van Gogh.buzznet:user:entry:id:447475912008--1-0-T03: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T03: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T03: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey You may know him as the dude who cut his own ear of.
I went to the museum today :)
And i touched this painting.
Yeah that's right i touched a real van Gogh.
The alarm went off which gave me a heartattack :)]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122305001476.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122305001476.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122305001476.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122305001476.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122305001476.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122305001476.jpgSweet 16.buzznet:user:entry:id:446981212008--1-0-T02: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T02: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T02: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey For the average teenager in this country that means;
- alcohol.
- cigarettes.
- nice clubs.
- i don't drink.
- i don't smoke.
- i don't go out.
And if i did. They always thought i was older than 16 so i always had access to those things anyway.
supervisor: so Ashley i've noticed you haven't made any friends yet. How come?
Ashley: Seriously have you seen the people in my class?]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122296374189.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122296374189.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122296374189.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122296374189.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122296374189.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122296374189.jpgOctober first; almost my birthday.buzznet:user:entry:id:446494212008--1-0-T01: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T01: 0:9:-08:002008--1-0-T01: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey They're decorating the livingroom with balloons and other colorfull stuff :).
For the first time in 3 years i'm getting excited about my birthday.
Cause this year everything seems to be right :)
Goodbye 15.
Hello 16.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122288010487.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122288010487.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122288010487.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122288010487.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122288010487.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122288010487.jpgOke, so why did i miss this?buzznet:user:entry:id:446020212008--0-9-T30: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T30: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T30: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey Oh that's right. This happened 40 years ago.
Another familyphoto i love.
The man in the blue jacket is my mother's uncle.
I don't even know what is going on here and my mother's uncle is very mysterious about it so i decided; i don't even want to know.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122279261904.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122279261904.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122279261904.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122279261904.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122279261904.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122279261904.jpgThe living are getting rarer.buzznet:user:entry:id:445491712008--0-9-T29: 1:1:-08:002008--0-9-T29: 1:1:-08:002008--0-9-T29: 1:1:-08:00ashliliiey Some of the living aren't even really alive.
When i was a little kid i thought a hearse drove people to heaven.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122271294284.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122271294284.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122271294284.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122271294284.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122271294284.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122271294284.jpgPARTY TIME!buzznet:user:entry:id:444839412008--0-9-T28: 0:8:-08:002008--0-9-T28: 0:8:-08:002008--0-9-T28: 0:8:-08:00ashliliiey Buzznet, you better remember my birthday.
Next week on thursday :D.
- Btw: not so sure if i like this one though.
It's pretty old.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-12226156777.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-12226156777.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-12226156777.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-12226156777.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-12226156777.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-12226156777.jpgOh what an accomplishment.buzznet:user:entry:id:444253412008--0-9-T27: 0:6:-08:002008--0-9-T27: 0:6:-08:002008--0-9-T27: 0:6:-08:00ashliliiey After a ruined childhood and some what destroyed dreams i'm still able to smile and actually mean it.
Dear Buzznet,
i promise i will come up with something better
than this lame picture of myself.
Yours sincerely
Ashley.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-12225234249.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-12225234249.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-12225234249.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-12225234249.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-12225234249.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-12225234249.jpgYawn.buzznet:user:entry:id:443573312008--0-9-T26: 0:6:-08:002008--0-9-T26: 0:6:-08:002008--0-9-T26: 0:6:-08:00ashliliiey School is getting too easy.
Today i got 2 very good grades back.
So watch out i feel extremely intelligent today.
And i'm thinking about a break from buzznet.
Just because sometimes i dont like this place that much anymore.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122243684698.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122243684698.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122243684698.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122243684698.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122243684698.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122243684698.jpg'Art'buzznet:user:entry:id:443115912008--0-9-T25: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T25: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T25: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey ' No my paintings do not have a meaning or a message. I just paint pretty things'
I wanted to kill her (the artist i had to interview) after that answer.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-12223588217.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-12223588217.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-12223588217.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-12223588217.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-12223588217.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-12223588217.jpgMessage to God.buzznet:user:entry:id:442574512008--0-9-T24: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T24: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T24: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey S.O.S
A day i lost another bit of faith in humanity.
I'm hungry and my mom is yelling at us because the tv doesn't work and she swears she will burn the store down who sold her that 'piece of crap'
My sister is being a retard as usual and is unpacking a present that isn't even for her.
Ah i love my family.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122227374127.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122227374127.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122227374127.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122227374127.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122227374127.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122227374127.jpgSlaves of the government.buzznet:user:entry:id:442022912008--0-9-T23: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T23: 0:9:-08:002008--0-9-T23: 0:9:-08:00ashliliiey Little police car.
Yes, go on people. Teach them about the law.
And how to hate the people who refuse to become part of the machine.
Another prison-system. For you and me to listen.
- Let me free,this is not my home.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122218602481.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122218602481.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122218602481.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122218602481.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122218602481.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122218602481.jpgPlease, mom stop combing my hair.buzznet:user:entry:id:441551512008--0-9-T22: 1:0:-08:002008--0-9-T22: 1:0:-08:002008--0-9-T22: 1:0:-08:00ashliliiey This picture always puts a smile on my face. :D
Long long monday, i was done at 5 pm with school.
I also had to run again in gymclass. I can't feel my legs anymore.
After school i immediately had to come along with my mom to;
-print my interview.
-bring back her shoes at this store.
-buy other stuff in stores.
-go to the supermarket to get some food.
7pm and i'm finally home.
The house smells like burned pizza and i hope mine survived.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122210442241.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122210442241.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122210442241.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122210442241.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122210442241.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122210442241.jpgBaby Lisa.buzznet:user:entry:id:440668112008--0-9-T21: 0:4:-08:002008--0-9-T21: 0:4:-08:002008--0-9-T21: 0:4:-08:00ashliliiey My sister; now she's wearing colorfull skinny jeans and has emo haircuts.
3 years younger than me. Learning from my mistakes.
Picking on me because she's taller.
Not just my little sister but also my best friend.]]>http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/thumb-msg-122199793375.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/synd-msg-122199793375.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/mob-msg-122199793375.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/gallery-msg-122199793375.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/large-msg-122199793375.jpghttp://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/ashliliiey/default/feat-msg-122199793375.jpg
